Letter From God

"To whomsoever is still Human"

LETTER FROM GOD

Hi there, hope you don't mind hearing from a totally strange voice [ yes,you don't really know me !! ]. I never wanted to add up to your mailbox, but sometimes somethings need to be clarified, need to be changed. And please know that there are somethings that you just can't know without me. You just can't disprove my existence. I am there, I'll tell you later where and why. In this letter I just wanted to tell you something you overlooked and moved ahead with your plans, your designs and your general clans.

What situation I present here may be completely fictional, but its implications are highly evident in the non - fictional world you live in.[ What do you think....is it real ??]

View point I : someday, sometime, MARS.

The Human [Earthlings] spaceship [or just the probe] is landing on the surface of Mars....it's the first time humans are setting foot on Mars. The probe lands....seven of your guys come out, jump here and there, use some freaky instruments on Mars, take out some wacky readings....just to conclude that LIFE DOESN'T EXIST ON MARS. They go back just in the same way they came...thinking how much time it'll take them to meet the real aliens....green slimy, super-demon,acid spitting real anti humans , on other planets.

View point II : sameday,sametime,MARS.

It wasn't just like any other day for Martians, just like any other time. They never expected what they saw....a strange shape-like thing falling from above....something unknown coming out of it. When it rested....those unknown things jumping from places, acting strangely....and then going away the same way they came, in a big box. Not even once did a thought clicked in a Martian 's mind that these unknown jumping things were other intelligent forms of life.

With the two viewpoints clear to you, I can now directly state what I wanted to convey in this letter. You know, you're never going to find an alien life form if you keep searching for them in the way you do now. You have conjured up an image [ of a typical alien ] in your mind [ far from reality ] and you always try to find only that creation, nothing else. Why do you always think that water and/or air [oxygen ,to be sure] is necessary for life to flourish. If it worked in your case, then is it necessary that it should work just like that for everyone in the back ? For how long will you wait for them to send [ an electromagnetic wave ] signal or come flying down in a saucer shaped spaceship. Can't it be that for MARS its lifeforms be the red stones, air,lava or just any other thing be a form of life ------ which you won't ever see or believe. Your priorities and their requirements are different....and you won't find each other, if you don't open up your mind. If you don't change you'll always be alone, what you need is to make friends with faces in the wall.

I think now it's time for you to answer this question ,"What is this thing called LIFE".??Think about it...try to find a definition of life that applies to every form of life....[ not just earthlings ].

Expect to hear from me soon....till then , take care. Bye.

Your loving father,

GOD.

"Your eyes told me my crime"

Staring outside,
sitting near the window pane,
I see everyone, but not you.
How stupid I am,
don't even realise, why I never told
you why I wanted to see you.

Never known, never grown,
why we were always so far.
still my brain keeps you alive,
still I feel the magic of your eyes....
cause they told me my crime.

[Rap Track]
This song is not straight,
my life is reflected in its pain.
Now I really miss you,
But why I do that I don't know.
we were never connected
never thought of giving it a try
Sitting back, solitary now,
I just try to think,
What happened to you....
why I allowed you to go..

This world creeps under my skin
making me sink back, more inside
and I tell you that there's no one to
pull me back now.
no one to give me breath now.
Why am I losing everything....
why am I failing.
no one wants to answer this now.

Never known, never grown,
why we were always so far.
still my brain keeps you alive,
still I feel the magic of your eyes....
cause they told me my crime.

[Normal Track]
You know , its more painful
now, when you're gone.
to watch you speak, to watch you freak
just behind my computer screen.
why was it invented....the memories would've burned me anyway .

[Rap Track]
I ask this to everyone, back in open again
I say out my mind.
How can you hate now the one you loved [ and I know you still love]
[and for me] how can you lose what you never had.
I never had you with me....
[in reality you never was even near me]
everything is closing down, then why I still try
still to remember you....
still to love you.
and why don't I fail everytime
why do you return back to me always.

Never known, never grown,
why we were always so far.
still my brain keeps you alive,
still I feel the magic of your eyes....
cause they told me my crime.

[Normal Track]
Time has passed so much that
everything seems that it never happened.
still whenever the Time will end,
one thing that won't ever be gone....
will be your priceless breath in my rhyme.

"Cursed"

Its in my breath,
Its in my name,
guilty before you end the game.

Cursed I am,
for what I tried,
never got out of trying phase.

[Rap Track]
The moment was coming,
tension and sweat filling the cloud,
crowd's shouting was at its height,
when he came to stage,
he tried to speak not just freak.
but the crowd choked him down ,
he went all the way down in one go.
but he felt no pain, even no shame.

What I need to tell you that it's not his tale
it's not his story of pretending
why he did go late.
His heart felt more streaked,
more scared, burning indeed
when the view of
prospective girlfriend's current boyfriend
convince him to change his ways instead.

Its in my breath,
Its in my name,
guilty before you end the game.

Cursed I am,
for what I tried,
never got out of trying phase.

[Normal]
I am not me,
just acting a witness to myself.
atlast the pieces of me
decided to be a hitchhiker
go decipher....
the unpredictable they prophesize.

Its in my breath,
Its in my name,
guilty before you end the game.

Cursed I am,
for what I tried,
never got out of trying phase.

[Rap Track]
I ain't sick, I ain't the one who is
only destined to try and die.
I was there when you failed
and when you cried.
it was only I who never tricked
you outta your life.
Then why you make the situation
with me so sticky,
Stop acting so fishy.
One day I know you'll know
the only one who was there only for
you, just for you,
was me and no one else.
Still you fuck up my life and
make it more difficult for me to
try and decide.

Its in my breath,
Its in my name,
guilty before you end the game.

Cursed I am,
for what I tried,
never got out of trying phase.

[Normal]
I won't be there always
someday I may die,that can be anyday
Then why don't you see me
even when I'm standing before your eyes.

Its in my breath,
Its in my name,
guilty before you end the game.

Cursed I am,
for what I tried,
never got out of trying phase.

[Rap Track]
Now lemme tell you why I
called myself so cursed.
There's a bug in my bag,
and that bug is called my brain.
Who to think as closest to me,
when time comes,the need arises
that same person,
is found most distant to me.
the empty promises ,faked up smiles,
your swollen disregard
hatred embedded in disdain,
denies me mortal gain.
Loneliness is what I always see near me,
That's why my spirits pine
Why I just don't live in your time.

[ Don't pretend,just wipe that grin off your face]

Is it my mistake,
' HANG OUT' really is that a phrase,
that you never speak in my space.

Its in my breath,
Its in my name,
guilty before you end the game.

Cursed I am,
for what I tried,
never got out of trying phase.

[Hazy distant voice]
I can't change however hard I try,
my condition,my life,
ther curse pulled over my rhyme.
Not Another Day........I want to die ToDaY.

"Disfunctioned Rhyme"

Once that she left you to go,
she won't come back do you know.
But that time spend with her,
will always stay in mind's flow.

[Distant voice]
Duskun Sun
Sitting in a pun.
Listen this,
life's really a chiken run.
Maybe you never asked and
that's why you were never told.
the reason to believe
why I risked my life for you all.

[Rap Track]
I did not do any research
I went straight into the mirth
you'll joke at it,I know
but listen to it first

"What's your name" ,she asked me
my mouth went dry,
the bolt had really hard.
I fell for like a crazy frog.
Days later ,we sat in the dark,
watching a movie [dirty thoughts apart]
time passed ,we came more close, closer though
I really loved her, I asked....
the voice replied, speak to her so.
the park's corner was lonely,
no one to bother about.
pruning her brown hairs I was,
while her husked voice
made my soul craving to grow.

Our faces were inches apart
when I said the three words,
that brought her reply...a passionate kiss,
I prayed it to last for eternity.
But the story is never fine...
happy endings don't come in our time.
Why things always tend to go wrong,
and that's why I wanted to tell
in this verse so long.

Once that she left you to go,
she won't come back do you know.
But that time spend with her,
will always stay in mind's flow.

[Rap Track]
Scene's changing,we are back to present times,
she left me,and I did no crime.
It was her fault,her ambition,
her defination of clear substitution.
I didn't became her's one in the new frame,
some stupid freak dislodged my name.
What did I left,what did I tried,
that made her think that I was
only good for a dime.

I don't complain,
thinking bad about you is outta my mind.
you did what you did,
but that won't make me hate
you back. [note the pun in rhyme]
I still love you, still feel the
breath of you, the passions evident
in that prime time.
And now I just plan to live,
stay alive,with your burden,
my worst design.

Once that she left you to go,
she won't come back do you know.
But that time spend with her,
will always stay in mind's flow.

Now to more general people I move,
just asking a question on the groove..
why don't the girls get the right
person that they really need,
for todaY
for everydaY
for all the daYs.
why do they make the wrong choice,
why do they dream with eyes wide.
running with crazy mad freaks
good for nothing shitheads,
crazy for fun, nothin else indeed.

Once that she left you to go,
she won't come back do you know.
But that time spend with her,
will always stay in mind's flow.

Decided in mind, with a
disfunctioned rhyme,
I breath the pain in the sane
not knowing for what I pine.
Why do the real good guys,
stay behind ,just to look and smile
just to CALL that it's not their time.

I had been a part of both
the scenes, seen the movie...
both forward and rewind.

"Cracked Angel"

[Entry]
It never started
It never came to an end
it only got more eroded...
just telling you the stand.

[Background distant sound]
The days never passed
the foolish sun never died.
Her thoughts diminished her
more in her eyes.

[Rap track]
I don't remeber your face,
of your thoughts I have no trace,
now even thinking about you gives me headache.
I don't love you anymore
That job is pulled by someone else now.
Then why am I needed now ??

[Normal]
Third person in my side says...
you don't realise,
it could have been a paradise.
Idon't change,never bring you to shame.
its the people who get new
tales and faces in the game.

[Rap Track]
You know,my mind merged
with my heart indeed.
And I don't feel guilt anymore.
I don't seek vengeance,
I don't need a damage relief.
Like you someone else will come indeed.
But what I wish,what I seek
is just to tell you,my late love,
Don't ever cheat,
Don't ever do again,
what you did to me.
I don't want someone to die
just becuase of you.
I don't want to see the same
hatred that's present in me,
nurtured in someone's breed.

[Distant Hazy voice]
I want to see you die
I want you to turn grey,
frozen blood ,all black,
filled in your creed.

[Normal]
Third person in my side says...
you don't realise,
it could have been a paradise.
I don't change,never bring you to shame.
its the people who get new
tales and faces in the game.

[Rap track]
Listen this bitch,
I died because of you,
but the hatred you forged
spawned me in flesh again.
I won't listen to your lies.
Your pleading will not
turn a face again.
Know it,you just know this,
I am not the one that fell for ye,
I am not that worthless
piece of shit that licked
your nick.

[Distant Hazy Voice]
Satan waits for you,
get ready to be fried,
get ready to be sliced
like an apple pie.

[Rap track]
I won't say this shit more,
Turn and see, I am standing
in the shadows,just behind
your eyes.
The reason is perfect;
just note the time,
feel the crack in your neck,
feel the hot blood dripping from your soul
........
Haha, Angels do die

.

Chain Reaction

Reaction starts,
the sparks burn out.
the sound is getting louder,
torque increasing, tires screeching,
is something burning ?

The time starts now ,
my hatred spawns vengeance,
the soul tries to come out.
real blood are we sweating
and eyes pump out.

Stage is set, let's fight out.
smoke comes as I scream,
mind gets more clouded,
the more I speak.
Shut up, I am not trying to freak.

Get me more pain, do you read !
crying out aloud, that's not what I am.
But a rotten carcass,that you could be.
Stop defending now. I know
you have no steak.

Pink Pussycat, that's what you
really gonna be.
Stand up and fight, that's the
only option you have indeed.
Do you not want me to bleed ?

I'm not gonna let you back out.
You'll surely die if you run out.
So fight till you die,
Run till you breath.
This is life signing off to you,
See ya again,iNDeed.

"Lost you in the rain"

[Entry]
You wanna insert your pen there,
you wanna know the inside story,
So listen it now.

[Rap]
I don't want to defer,
But you're not the one I prefer.
Still I never wanted to make you cry,
your tears ran me in despair.
you never realised,but I wanna make you know,
to make life straight ,I ran it in reverse.

why I died,why I failed.
why I never faced you in the rain,
maybe that's why, I lost you again.

My past has got changed,
vacant road left behind,
why should I talk about you again.
nonexistent; the fiber between us has become.
I don't want to live in bleeding dreams,
but your smiles drived me insane.
why I died,why I failed.
why I never faced you in the rain,
maybe that's why, I lost you again.

[Normal]
Sometimes I feel I've become a disease
who won't be able to infect you again.
I've made you so much demolished.
Don't ask the reason behind this game.
you won't come across,
my infected brain again.
Hidden from you now I am,
and I promise I won't come back again.

[Rap]
Your substance forces me in pain,
all my efforts went in vain.
Why that picture lies there,
why all this change.
Why I got bypassed,
croaking about it has no gain.

why I died,why I failed.
why I never faced you in the rain,
maybe that's why, I lost you again.

Maybe I became the other one,
viewing your profile,locked
far away,somewhere in blame.
That blue hides you now,
and I copulate my life again.
why I died,why I failed.
why I never faced you in the rain,
maybe that's why, I lost you again.

[Normal]
My memories bleed,the spirits sieze,
passions behind them is evident beneath.
they ripped me apart,and blasted my soul,
everlasting destruction is now what I secure.
you won't come across,
my infected brain again.
Hidden from you now I am,
and I promise I won't come back again.

[Rap]
In the two way picture,everything has ruptured.
Something is missing from the frame I captured.
Don't think you deserve a lot,just think how much you got.
why I died,why I failed.
why I never faced you in the rain,
maybe that's why, I lost you again.
Lost you again....again
Lost you again....again
again....again
again....again
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this is my first song....the work to make it real is in progress.
the lyrics for this song was taken from my previous poems you may come across in this blog

Nearby feelings

the silent noise filled my ears,
no one heard it, how sad it appears.
The troubled minds do care for no one,
even for me, who was never there.

My functions betrayed me,
I tried to melt,
before they could catch me,
I wanted to go to hell.

Shit appears everywhere,
to me it seems....you were also there.
Hurt me like you never knew me before,
cause I don't want to be here anymore.

How lucky I was to see it all,
your thought interfering with the minds forlorn,
your spirits merging with the soul I craved for,
What was never mine is now yours.

It wasn't the last time I felt ignored,
crap it all now, do you know
what I am talking about for so long.
Its not your fault,its my troubled fate.
that make me piss on your face.
Just don't reply....the feelings will die soon,
it'll all be back to normal again,
and life....as we see it,will be there too.

My Life

Two way picture
everything to rupture.
The heart is weak,
so many to drown her.

Turning from your rusted thoughts
without a moment to live again
Why I got bypassed,
croaking about it has no gain.

Your substance force me in pain,
all my efforts went in vain.
........living in bleeding dreams,
your smiles drive me insane.

My past has got changed,
vacant road, left behind,
why should I talk about you again
nonexistant;the fiber between us has became.

Why that picture lies there,
why all this change....
I know you never cared for,
the ones who loved, ones who never brought you pain.

Something is missing,
from the frame I captured.
That blue dress hides you now,
and I copulate my life again.

Maybe I became the other one,
viewing your profile,locked
far away, somewhere in blame.
Terminating the processes in mind's game.

Sometimes I feel I've become a disease,
who won't infect you again.
So I won't be there
Standing beside your name.

Your soul is mine

Now you're not mine,
The soul I loved is not thine.

No one knows a piece about,
you and me.
and they even won't fiddle when they
won't see you and me.

Because now I hate you with every
fiber in my being,
the love that I once had for you,
has now surpassed its true scene.

I won't come back,
you know why.
I won't be standing there,behind you;
guilty of what you did was wrong;
and feared that anyone would find you.

But don't ever dare ,to forget me,
cause there will come a time,
when you won't be yourself and become
a slave to somebody's grime.

Then you'll need to open up your mind,
leave all yours and all what was mine,
and feel my presence there in your heart.
where I plan to live when -
I won't be alive.

Her Resurrection

No more riddles,
and I even won't fiddle
the day I met her was:
same as the day I left her.
No one objected, I never
threw the light on them.
Even with the faces turned afar,
I don't know why I made you
so much demolished.

One more time,it was time
to give you recognition;
I told them the tale,
the rise and the fall.
every piece of it; cutting it short.
why do you swallow me now,
there's no trace of you anywhere now.
You're as good as BANG,dead.
leave me alone,girl;
and don't even think of coming another day,
you're no more in me now.